"25 Years. It's been 25 years ever since my first love and I got into a car crash that took her life. Apparently the guy who crashed into us was heavily drunk. He only got like 6 months out of that ordeal, but I'll never forget that fucking bastard, hope he burns in hell. My right leg was broken, the doctors said it'd be like 2 years until I get walking, but oh god was it much longer than that. I spend 6 years to even heal enough that i could THINK about walking, it was that bad. Couple that with the grief and depression and stuff I got from that, I think I could never forget that night of 76.
Ever since then, a lot changed. I moved to Arizona, got a new love and then wife, got a son and a new job, and I've almost completely left my old self behind, the guy that went to deliver mail back in 73 with those shoes and fedora only as a distant memory. Up until today I was doing nothing but tech-support at a local office and television for off-time for the last few months (thankfully my son is all grown up and knows more about this computer business than my whole lineage would), I'd occasionally go out with my colleagues for fishing or to go bowling with my family (only for my 14 y/o to inevitably go to the arcades because those are more flashy apparently), but for most of my new life it was nothing but sit at a computer and then sit at a TV. Not until today...
Today my son apparently found my old dusty pair of shoes I haven't worn since forever in some box. My god, you would HAVE to see my face when he showed me these and said something like "Hey Dad, you haven't worn these in forever it seems!", and sure enough I didn't wear them in forever. They were this nice bright beige, suitable for an old (53 y/o) bloke like me. I I haven't seen these since I think 87 when I was at our wedding. Anyhow, when I saw these damn shoes so, so many memories flooded me back that I was pushing away this whole time in my mind, I was flabbergasted to be honest.
And later today I thought "Well, I haven't went and chosen how I live" and things like that, and I figured. What was I doing this whole time? Was I stagnating and gradually becoming a shell of myself, even with the things I achieved? Was this all for nothing? And then I decided: I'll go out there. I'll go and make myself whatever the fuck I want to be, go where I want, go do what I want, and improve myself god fucking damn it. So tomorrow I'll tie my shoes, get my fedora and clothing out, and get myself a new job. I know it will be hard, but I will do it. For David, for my wife, for Me.
- Alex, 11.06.2013"

It has been long since I delved into memories and their deconstruction, a whole half a year infact! And I feel like I need to cash out this time with something big. I know you all still remember me and my work, and I still remember all of YOU and YOUR work, so I felt like making a sort of thank you to this wonderful community.
There's basically everything from here. Tracks both old and new, small and big, the most familiar and the most unrecognizable, the published and the cut, and some looks at things I've never been showing to you until now. Hope you enjoy it.
Oh and if you wonder about the state of The Haggstroms, don't worry about it, I'll do something with it eventually.

- See you on the other side, The Messenger.


// Tracklist //
Act I - The Fall (of a Man and the Consequences There-Of)
I fear something coming to me one day
A train stopping too soon
SPIN+FOR+A+ROLL
Its all going astray
Too much at once
Beyond Serenade Recollection
Help
Nowhere
Running Loss Shattered
Vacant Voices
Midngiht Night Night Night Nigh
The anthem of loss

Act II - The Mourning (for a Better Life and a Better Place)
Monument of loss
An empty tribute
Corridors of delirium
I can't do it anymore
Did I do everything right?
A night that never ends
Dial
The past degraded
It destroys me from inside
I tried my best
Not that it matters or anything
The thoughts linger
It feels like I lost something
Innocuous, yet beautiful

Act III - The Awakening (of Something Great from Deep Within the Soul)
Its all returning to me
Collective Amnesia
Bits of echoes
15-dimensional Garden of Eden
The universe is in your hands
The start of something new
Lets reset it all
The sun seems brighter than before
Two magaritas please
Earth Valley Of Return
I missed out on so much
I can feel the mountains and the valleys
A new life is emerging
A nice view out the window
Isle of Capri
Act IV - The Drive (to Live and to Learn and to Love This Life)
Starting to get it
I'm alive again
A moment of splendor
Back to the classics
I'm right here to stay
A night out
Neuendo
Markipliervision
The park with the cherry trees
Isn't it just fun?
A place in your heart
Sheltered by the stars, cradled by You


It's all fine in the end